I have had my fair share of life catastrophes to know that I shouldn’t have been the woman you see today. If I didn’t have Jesus in my life would have looked angry, bitter and definitely more unproductive.
There are a few times that I had the opportunity to say to God- Why Me? Yet, something pulled me away from that train of thought; and then I stated, “Why not me?”.
good things don’t equal being blessed
The problems that world (aka the devil) throw at me are not to break me down, but to build up my faith. Looking back and seeing the messes I have created; I know that I could not have got out of bed without His strength.
It isn’t easy to look in the mirror at your own horrible circumstances as a blessing. It is really easy to look at all the ‘good things’ as the blessing, but this is the lie.
don’t push people away unless they are negative narcissists
The grape is crushed to make wine! Then it is nurtured and left to ferment to become a better wine. This is the key to becoming ‘better’, who is nurturing you? Are you around a bunch of negative narcissists who just want to keep you focused on all you have done wrong… or are you with people who will see the light in you? Who know your heart and will remind you how much you are loved?
When are you crushed, do you allow God to bring HIS PEOPLE into your life or do you push them away so you can wallow in self despair a little longer? There have been times in my own life where I just wanted to die! I would plead with God to just stop my heartache and take me to heaven. I would be ashamed to admit this prayer happened more times than I would like to remember.
self-inflicted injuries hurt just as much
God doesn’t always do what I ask, which is a good thing! His plan is for Him, not me. My experiences here on this earth are merely that “experiences” they are not TRUTH. Most of the time I had self-inflicted trauma or decided my way was better than God’s, and then shit hit the fan.
Facing the crap head on has always been the way out of the pile. When I would run away or hide from things that didn’t feel good this is when explosions would happen later in my life. You deal with things now or they will deal with you later.
just talk to Him, don’t be so stubborn
God doesn’t want us to run away. In fact, He wants to hear your anger, your pain and your frustration. Why would He want to hear you? Because He is your friend. He truly wants to listen and to nurture you, hold you and eventually open your eyes wide enough to see what He sees. The sooner you reach for Him in your agony or your shit storm, the faster you will stop saying “why me?” and you will say “why not me?”.
Choose to talk to God first, the supportive friend second and keep those negative narcissistic people in the distance. And GET OUT OF BED!
